After making just a few Christmas presents, I think if I end up making any more, I'll end up keeping all of them and giving none of them away. T_T They look pretty. SIGH. I should be less attached to these sorts of things.

Oh my gosh. The english dubs are so good. Where have you been all my life

Baaah. I have been eating too much. I need to go swimming when I come back. Every. Single. Day. Shoh faht. Meh.

And mom. Your fried garlic prawns are on par with Rockpool (a fine dining restaurant in Burswood with a famous chef a.k.a Neil Perry). WE CAN OPEN A RESTAURANT. Hohoho. But seriously. When I ate it. I thought. My mom makes this. It tastes the same. BRAVOOOOHHHH. Their desserts of course. Are another matter entirely.

TOMORROW WILL BE THE LAST WEEK OF UNI. Sort of. I still have stuff due but its study week after this. Huhu. The book arrived today! But apparently I didn't hear the door bell sooo its gonna be delivered again tomorrow. Heh. I am anxious/excited on how it'll look. Mostly anxious. And filled with trepidation. So scared.

I have this horrible fear I'm going to do terribly this semester. Remember that nightmare from semester 1? Where I dreamed I got 60 something. Haiz. Paranoid now. I've been playing heaps this semester I think. So I deserve whatever I get. Sigh. At which point I start thinking, OMG, what am I going to do when i'm older? What if I'm no good? What if I don't get a job?! What if I don't get chosen for Honours? The horror. And uncertainty. Is killing me. You never think about this kind of stuff when you're a kid. And now looking back, I don't know what I was thinking about back then. Haha.

Our teacher brought in some of his illustration books form his library on all the digital painting techniques. MY GOSH. You know how other people are so good, its depressing. Yeaa. Like shittt. Such a long way to go! Kay. This holiday, I'm gonna learn whatever I can. And hopefully (fingers and toes crossed) get better.

But. The problem is. When I come home. I'm going to be so distracted. I'll start watching shows. And going out. And going swimming. And playing. And playing. And playing. I have no discipline. SO BAD.

...I need to go learn how to cook more stuff. OH. THIS SEM WASN'T ENTIRELY UNPRODUCTIVE IN THE CULINARY DEPARTMENT. Huhu. I learned how to make tiramisu, more types of pasta dishes (huhu, have gotten rounder I imagine) and more chicken dishes. AND I HAVE MY MOTHER'S CAJUN CHICKEN DOWN PAT. Nyah. And the father's famous kuey teow dish has been praised as being restaurant worthy. Huhu. Vegetable dishes are a complete fail.

SO. The silver lining is. Even if I fail in graphic design. There's a shot for me in the food business. You people can all be loyal customers.

OH MY GOSH. I wanna watch this so bad.

Jesus: Hello. Did you call me?

Man: Called you? No. Who is this?

Jesus: This is Jesus. I heard your prayers. So I thought I will chat.

Man: I do pray. Just makes me feel good. I am actually busy now. I am in the midst of something.

Jesus: What are you busy at? Ants are busy too.

Man: Don’t know. But I can’t find free time. Life has become hectic. It’s rush hour all the time.

Jesus: Sure. Activity gets you busy. But productivity gets you results. Activity consumes time. Productivity frees it.

Man: I understand. But I still can’t figure out. By the way, I was not expecting YOU to buzz me on instant messaging chat.

Jesus: Well I wanted to resolve your fight for time, by giving you some clarity. In this net era, I wanted to reach you through the medium you are comfortable with.

Man: Tell me, why has life become complicated now?

Jesus: Stop analyzing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it complicated.

Man: why are we then constantly unhappy?

Jesus: Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday. You are worrying because you are analyzing. Worrying has become your habit. That’s why you are not happy.

Man: But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty?

Jesus: Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional.

Man: But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty.

Jesus: Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional.

Man: If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer?

Jesus: Diamond cannot be polished without friction. Gold cannot be purified without fire. Good people go through trials, but don’t suffer. With that experience their life become better not bitter.

Man: You mean to say such experience is useful?

Jesus: Yes. In every term, Experience is a hard teacher. She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards.

Man: But still, why should we go through such tests? Why can’t we be free from problems?

Jesus: Problems are Purposeful Roadblocks Offering Beneficial Lessons (to) Enhance Mental Strength. Inner strength comes from struggle and endurance, not when you are free from problems.

Man: Frankly in the midst of so many problems, we don’t know where we are heading.

Jesus: If you look outside you will not know where you are heading. Look inside. Looking outside, you dream. Looking inside, you awaken. Eyes provide sight. Heart provides insight.

Man: Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt more than moving in the right direction. What should I do?

Jesus: Success is a measure as decided by others. Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you. Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying than knowing you rode ahead. You work with the compass. Let others work with the clock.

Man: In tough times, how do you stay motivated?

Jesus: Always look at how far you have come rather than how far you have to go. Always count your blessing, not what you are missing.

Man: What surprises you about people?

Jesus: When they suffer they ask, “why me? When they prosper, they never ask “Why me” Everyone wishes to have truth on their side, but few want to be on the side of the truth.

Man: Sometimes I ask, who I am, why am I here. I can’t get the answer.

Jesus: Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want to be. Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here. Create it. Life is not a process of discovery but a process of creation.

Man: How can I get the best out of life?

Jesus: Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear.

Man: One last question. Sometimes I feel my prayers are not answered.

Jesus: There are no unanswered prayers. At times the answer is NO.

Man: Thank you for this wonderful chat. I am so happy to start the day with a new sense of inspiration.

Jesus: Well. Keep the faith and drop the fear. Don’t believe your doubts and doubt your beliefs. Life is a mystery to solve not a problem to resolve. Trust me. Life is wonderful if you know how to live.

Man: Thank you so much.

Jesus: You are always welcome. Have a good day my friend.

The year is already ending. I'LL BE IN THIRD YEAR NEXT YEAR. And then I'll be graduating! What is this! AND THEN I'LL HAVE TO WORK.

...I was not meant to work. I am a strong believer that I was born to be a parasite to my family for pretty much all of my life. Okay being serious. Now I have to start thinking 'stay here?' or 'go back?' Its like. I only get one more year to be a kid. Sad shit.

A couple of people have passed away recently. Back home I mean. And they were old. Like. Late 90's. In school my teacher told us crazy stuff/family dramas always come up at the end of each semester for her. This semester she found out her family member got cancer. He's 30 odd. And then the next day, her boyfriend's friend or someone found out he got cancer too. He's 21. Like AHH. That's even worse! And then a friend passed away in her sleep. Brain aneurysm. She just got engaged and was planning for her wedding w/ her boyfriend. And now her boyfriend has to plan her funeral. 20 something too.

Its really shitty to die so old and unglamorously when all your faculties fail you. And then its really tragic if you die so young. Somehow the latter seems more romantic. If you know what I mean. ...But really neither is good.

I dunno.Maybe it'd be better if god just lets us disappear once we reached the best that we could've and if the only way we were gonna go after that is down. ...clearly I haven't thought this through.

Everyone's leaving to go off their own way. Oh man. I have so many questions. I know the relationships I have now are changing and they'll continue to change. Will it be better? Worse? What if all of us drift apart despite the heartfelt promises that we won't. What then? What if I change? What if you do? What if you're no longer the person I once knew? For better or worse? Man. It feels strange. Like you're being left behind.

You know when you always talk of the future and how it will be x amount of years from now. It always comes too soon.

My gosh. I have been watching these for the past half hour. There's heaps more on youtube. Awesome stuff.

GAH. I want the pikachu.

Today sucks.

I woke up at 4.30, and slept at 1.

Had to walk to school in the rain.

Found out my allegedly 'waterproof' jacket is not so waterproof after walking for 15 minutes.

Found out the jacket changes from 'waterproof' to 'absorbent'

and that eating breakfast at 5.30am makes you go hungry at 10.45 (or my eating capacity has gotten bigger...neither of which are good things)

found out in an email that staying at home to work for that unit instead of going to school and working on that unit made me miss an assessment. (well yeah. its my fault really. T_T no excuses for that one. KNS TTM)

...AND ITS ONLY 10 IN THE MORNING. and it stopped raining the moment i reached school. WHY.

Worst day of life. Ever. ...also i can't remember the other 'worst days of my life. ' So. This is it. ....my stomach is going to growl loudly in the library now. Huhu.

Click!

OMGGG. I have a black hole stomach. I ate one and a half servings of spaghetti. AND I'M STILL AS HUNGRY AS BEFORE. Its as if I never ate it T_T . . . but then again maybe it counts as one serving. @_@ Hnnn. Small bowl?

HUNGRY MONSTER. GAH.

Forever If Ever

His new album is coming out in roughly a month! Oh happiness! Can't wait can't wait *jumping up and down.

On a random note, there isn't much wrong with the world when you're sitting in your room, reading a book, enjoying a cup of coffee in the awesome awesome 16 degree weather. Especially when you're listening to Crystal Gayle croon "Don't it make my brown eyes blue." Thank you God for making me so easily contented. Happy sigh.

MY HARVEST MOON DATA IS GONE. GONE GONE GONE WITH THE WIND. Uhuuu. While I was saving my game, it hung. HUNG. Gone *weep I just got married. T_T AND I BOUGHT AN ISLAND FOR 900 MILLION OR SOMETHING. ALL THE YEARS OF PLAYING.

and I shudder to think how I could've actually bought that island if I hadn't turned the cheats on. Good grief. I can earn 8million in a Harvest moon year. *shiver. . . but then again, turning the cheats on might've caused the problem in the first place. Sigh oh well.

OH. TODAY! I USED MY DEBIT CARD FOR THE FIRST TIME. Yeaaa. I got it back in the beginning of 09. But I only just used it today. Hohoho. BYE BYE DEBIT CARD VIRGINITY. Nyahaha. *waves card around like a maniac

Green Island

Oh Vienna Teng how I love you.

This one is the acapella. No frills. Which is great. But the one with instruments is awesome too. Sigh sigh sigh. I need to learn Chinese. Isn't it great how you can appreciate stuff without understanding it =D ... oh but then again I guess you'd appreciate it more if you did. Cough. Oh apparently 'Green Island' was made popular by Teresa Teng. Oh how the mother will be delighted to know that.

Today I felt like the kid nobody wants to play with T_T sitting in one corner all by yourself in the playground. Okay. I've never been in that particular situation before but ya.

In class today, we were supposed to get allocated into groups and choose our design briefs. There're four of them. We had to choose a design brief for premix drinks which consisted of either vodka, bourbon/whiskey, some Russian milk vodka drink, and vitamin water.

Now! For some reason (or some coincidence) there was an alarming large number of Asian kids in class (all girls). FOUR OTHER ASIANS. Gasp. Such a large number. Hurr hurr. We are descending like a plague of locusts! MUHAHA. And apparently they were all friends. Cough. I knew none of them.

Then the teacher gathered us all together and then asked, "So who wants to do vodka?"

voohp! Up goes my hand. And like, glare glare glare. Nobody else's hand goes up. So I'm like meh. So then she asks, "Who wants to do bourbon/whiskey?" All the locals' hands go up. Double meh. "Who wants to do Russian milk premix?" Nobody raises their hands. Then, "Who wants to do vitamin water?" ALL THE ASIANS HANDS GO UP.

IF I WERE A DOG MY EARS WOULD BE DROOPING RIGHT THEN AND THERE I TELL YOU. Sigghhhhh. Loner shit T_T.

Anyhow. In the end I got put with 3 other locals to do the Russian milk thing. Several people didn't turn up to class cos they were all sick. So they're the ones who'll be doing vodka. FINGERS CROSSED. * chant chant chant HD HD HD HD*

My tooth brush cup and toothpaste are being hijacked. T_T Why oh why. And I'm not sure if my toothbrush is being hijacked either. @_@ OH GAWD. But then again. I can't remember if that toothbrush is mine. I'M PRETTY SURE IT IS.

Someone keeps removing it from my cup. I now realize why there are empty toothpaste tubes are placed there. So there's nothing left to hijack. Hnn.

Annie Lennox

Sigh. Love love love. =D I love how its so mellow in the beginning and then just builds. The original version is awesome too.

I love Street Fighter. Whenever I play it on my housemate’s PS3, she calls it pointless since its just one fight to the next. But the thing is! It is the BUTTON MASHING, screaming at the top of your lungs, sheer mindlessness of the game that makes it so ridiculously fun. *cough. So yeah. I scream, yell at the screen and button mash whenever I play versus games. Also. I provide the aforementioned housemate some form of entertainment. Oh how the woman laughs at my antics.

Hurr hurr. My brother so kindly loaned me his PSP so I could play Street Fighter to my hearts’ content. Heh. My brother FTW. Sniff sniff. You’re the best bro ever. Anyway! The difficulty was set to halfway. And I kept losing at the second round of the second match (if that made sense). (I KNOW! SO FAIL RIGHT) So then I decided to change difficulty and set it to easiest. AND THEN I STILL DIED AT THE SECOND ROUND OF THE SECOND MATCH.

WHAT THE HECK LA WEI. *HEADBANG TTM. AND I LOST TO A WRESTLING WOMAN W/ BLONDE HAIR AND BLUE HEARTS ON HER BOOBS. WHAT I TELL YOU. WHAT. TT_TT

So. The lesson is. Choosing the best looking character does not equate to victory. Also. I suck at versus games.

I think there was this story about a koi (not too sure) trying to jump up a waterfall. And then when it succeeded, it became a dragon. WELL. I FEEL LIKE A GOLDFISH. A MAGIKARP EVEN.

Results were released today! Truth be told, I thought I would be rather nonchalant and content about whatever marks I got. AND THEN LAST NIGHT. I had a nightmare that I got 71% for one of my units.

Then in the morning, I went to check my results. THE HORROR. I GOT 74%. GERAM SHIT. ALAS. REALITY TURNED OUT TO BE FAR WORSE THAN THE NIGHTMARE. One mark away from a HD. THE HORROR.

Therefore. I have an ugly D standing next to three HD's. Maybe I should've played less and took less naps. BAH BAH BAH. *goes off to kick something.

You know what. I can't color a thing in Photoshop to save my life. T_T I get impatient, then frustrated and can't be bothered to make it any prettier afterwards (also I suck). Uhuuuu. You know how some people are so good at stuff and you're in awe. Well! They're so good, its depressing. *weep

Like. I know how I want the picture to look in the end. But I just can't get it to look that way. Bah. If I had a super power. I'd probably be coloring things with my mind, and having it magically come to life, all details fleshed out and beautiful, no fuss whatsoever.

... But I suppose that isn't quite as fulfilling.

TBH, I'm impatient at everything. @_@ HOW DID I MAKE IT UNTIL NOW I WONDER.

After finding no motivation to continue working (been doing work the whole day) (oh, its due tmr btw, and i'm only half done), I turned to the Bible hoping to be motivated. And. After randomly flipping through hoping for divine afflatus, I chance upon Ecclesiastes. . . or was it Ephesians? Meh. Whatever comes after Proverbs. (Clearly somebody doesn't read much). ONLY TO HAVE IT TELL ME THAT EVERYTHING IS MEANINGLESS.

SOME SIGN THAT WAS. KANASAI. Now I feel more deflated. Bleep bleep bleep T_T. Sniff sniff.

#6 Something that excites you and fills you with joy

For this one, I think it has got to be the idea of a holiday. But when the actual holiday actually comes around I spend it catching up on work. So idea of a holiday yes. Actual holiday. Not so much.

And! Black sesame ice cream. BEST STUFF IN THE WORLD I SWEAR. And ham and cheese croissants. BAAH. I could keep eating the stuff @_@ so bad. (cough) getting rounder (cough) SIGH. Food fills my tummy with joy. I want to get an ice cream maker. They're like. 200 bucks I think. Though I imagine, after I get one, and realizing how many eggs go in there, I'll be too mortified to make any for myself to eat. SO I'LL FEED EM TO ALL OF YOU (who are blissfully ignorant of the ingredients). This is like the carrot cake all over again. =)

I need to swim lots of laps when I come home. Ahem. I realized I like the idea of running. It’s the panting and heaving afterwards that I can’t handle. I have such low stamina its mortifying. So. If we were all being chased by a lion. We know who’ll die first yeah. Oh how I envy you giraffes (cough) LKM (cough) LERIDA (cough).

THE SEMESTER IS ALREADY ENDING. This is the part where I rant about it being semi depressing and it leading closer to me graduating, getting a job, and getting old. Oh the joy. BUT! I’ll not talk about that.

Anyway! Throughout the semester I’ve been constantly grateful at what great lecturers I got this round. I actually enrolled for my classes pretty late since I changed majors (and I got around to that pretty late too). Hurr. But yeah. When I was picking out my timetable and selecting what time to go for which class, I somehow ended up getting all the good lecturers. The hours were for the morning classes for some of ‘em. Initially I vouched for the morning classes since it was summer, and I was going to be drenched in sweat if I walked to school any time after 9am. So yeah. BLESSINGS IN DISGUISE I TELL YOU.

My friends tell me horror stories of their teachers. Classes that are supposed to run for 3 hours end after 15 minutes w/ little constructive feedback. (Since everybody complained, that teacher got deregistered or something along those lines) (STUDENT POWER BABY) And she gave everybody the same mark. Like. Cue bitching and ranting from HD students. Heh. And there's this other teacher w/ a British accent. From what I hear, he's pretty condescending/asks rhetorical questions (to his students) which he expects them to answer. Hnn.

I think I'll be chanting mantras over my time table for next semester hoping I get as lucky. @_@. Or blessed. Whatever you wanna call it.

Self control

Today, a guy in class told us of this wonderful application for macs called SELF CONTROL. I kid you not. That's what its called.

Anyway! What it does is prevents you from accessing certain websites (your choice e.g. Facebook etc. etc.) for a set period of time (your choice).

You put the sites on your black list and start the timer. And yeah. You can't access them at all during that time, and there's no way to terminate it. So you just have to wait for the timer to run down. I should've learned of this last year =.= It would have saved me a lot of stress.

This song has been on loop. Good stuff. =] On a random note. I realized that ignoring my leader's calls just because I am too scared to pick up is somewhat childish. COUGH. But really. I am too scared to pick up for fear of her righteous anger. Grin.

When chopping onions

Be prepared. Heh. Castle is an awesome series. I am so backlogged it isn't funny.

I remember last time when my bro and I used to play Maplestory, and when we met older players e.g. 20 and in university, we would go like “Woah! I played w/ this guy and he’s 20, and in university and all that shit.” And we’d somehow be super impressed or awed. (God knows why really. Its absurd looking back at it) Kids ya know.

Anyway! My housemate’s boyfriend plays Maple. He. Is 24. And now I’m thinking, WHAT ARE YOU DOING PLAYING MAPLE YOU OLD GEEZER. GO PLAY C.O.D OR SOMETHING. Granted, replaying Maplestory just to check out the new jobs is not TOO bad. BUT DOING IT ON A NORMAL SERVER?! The boy is too free I tell ya.

Okamiden

SERIOUSLY. How can anyone eat these?! T_T They're like. Too awesome to be eaten. I was screaming and going ADSFLKJDKLNFASNFDN at the screen when my friend showed it to me. The very free lady who made these awesome foods has a website. Annathered

On a side note, OKAMIDEN IS OUTTTT. Oh happiness. =D And I left my DS back home. =.= Previously I left my charger here and brought the DS back. Now its the other way round. But its a good thing I think. If not I'll be even more behind in work. I'll be obsessed in playing Layton and Okamiden and Harvest Moon and what not.

IMO, Layton has got to be the hardest to eat. His face is going, "Eat me!"

PATAPON FTW! I just remembered at CF (can't remember which year), one guy dressed up as a Patapon. And for some reason everybody started stabbing the poor guy with pencils through his costume. I laughed so hard. Cough.

Its chocolateee.

<3! <3! <3! Sigh I want a toy.

And now the super duper epic Shadow of Colossus cheese on toast.

In a book (The Immortal Prince) there is an Ocean . . .

Which is called Tempura. *headbang. Groan.

Jon Mclaughlin

I was just listening to Backstreet Boys on my iTunes. It was ‘I want it that way’ at that. Maaann. I feel old. Looking back, now it feels like those cliché, pop tween songs. . Carmen Low is going to kill me. (cough).

If anyone asks me what I miss about Malaysia, I’m going to tell them, Lite n’ Easy. I swear. That radio station makes me happy. And after growing up with it for the entire 19 years I’ve been on this earth, you can’t quite part with it. Thank God for online streaming (however faulty and hormonal it may be). The stations here just don’t quite compare =)

ON A RANDOM NOTE. Jon Mclaughlin is awesome. He ranks right up there next to Lifehouse for me =D He does piano pop rock, but these are the slower songs. I’ve been listening to him ever since he sang in Enchanted. Sher I think you’ll like him =) I think the one plus side of being American/being in America is that you can get to watch them in concert T_T. They never tour overseas. The last concert I went to was for the Ten Tenors. I think. THAT WAS AGES AGO. Come to think of it, I’m not even sure if they’re still alive and kicking.

A guy in my class got robbed just the other day. =/ He lives in the same area I do. When he called the police, they came 3 hours later. T_T He pretty much lost everything except his Xbox 360 and his TV. I know right! The thieves took four laptops but didn’t take the Xbox. And apparently when the policeman saw, he laughed and pointed out that they didn’t take it cos it wasn’t a PS3. Anyways =/ all his work is gone, assignments and stuff. They even took his hardcopies i.e. layout pads. And we’re like, “WHAT WOULD THEY NEED THAT FOR?!” And all of us kind of diverted from the lesson and started talking about robberies in Bentley. Ahaha. The forensics person was pretty . . . well. Imagine this, the forensic’s right hand is gloved, and the left not. She/he picks up evidence w/ his/her left hand and goes, “No I definitely don’t see any fingerprints on this. Yeap.” My. Gawd. Example number two. He/she wipes ungloved hand across table and uses gloved hand to shine the beam. Aren’t they just getting rid of the evidence? =/ Meh.

Our teacher told us she had this student that got robbed at knifepoint. Like. The girl went to bed with her window open (cos it was summer and 40 degrees) and then this Aboriginal woman breaks into her room. She pretends to be sleeping and sort of peeks through her eyelids (they’re sorta closed but you can still see kind of thing) and yeah. The woman just held a knife to her throat for five minutes. Somehow (don’t know the details) the girl managed to run to the kitchen and get a knife and chase the woman out of her house, slashing the Aboriginal woman’s hand in the process. And we’re thinking, great! She scared her off! Then we’re told that the Aboriginal woman proceeds to file a report for assault. So. The girl had to pay. Like. WHAT? WE PROTECT THIEVES AND ROBBERS NOW? Okay. I know I shouldn’t be surprised. Cos it happens in America, and that the law isn’t perfect. But SERIOUSLY. Like WHAT?! ITS INFURIATING.

So I reckon I’ll just sit there like a D.I.D. (damsel in distress) waiting for the robber to do me serious bodily harm before picking up my baseball bat and smashing him in the nuts. There’s a law that you can’t harm anyone on your property if they don’t live with you (or some such). Then the policeman said, to just let the robbers take everything, telling them not to hurt you, and once they got out of your house, you could give chase. On a random note, you can’t attack them if they have a lower grade weapon than you do. E.g. I have a knife, they have a baseball bat, I’ll get charged.

OH. Today while I was walking to school I passed by this blue house (part of my normal route). Its alarm was going off. All this while I thought, nobody in hell is gonna rob that house. Cos. They have this shit scary skeleton that peeks from behind the curtain. Like when you have your curtains drawn and you pull it back a little just to look outside kind-of-pose. And no it is not the sterile looking tame skeleton that we have in biology labs. IT WAS WOODEN AND IT LOOKED LIKE IT CAME FROM THE JUNGLES OF SOUTH AMERICA OR SOMETHING. Scary shit. Anywaay. The police came and walked around the house. And. That’s all I know. Cos I had to go to school. Haha.

…wow long post.

Our teacher showed this to us in her lecture. Funny stuff! Bet you CBS students don't have as much fun. Grin.

#5 Something in life that gives you balance

What? I’m not sure how to answer that. . . or if I understand the statement entirely. Somehow pilates comes to mind. I mean. The mental image. I’ve never done it, and I don’t think I ever will. Its just. Gay. Which leads us to yoga! (I don’t do it either) Mental image of old people trying to do all those wacky poses. And then suddenly of farts coming out the other end. PFFTTT.

Somehow I keep thinking that I should be thinking of more intellectual things, like politics and religion and current affairs. But the truth of it is that I’m really happy thinking about all this sort of nonsense. And yeah I know that as an adult you should keep informed. But everybody always whines and bitches and looks depressed/worried/angry/or gets fired up when talking about such topics. TBH I guess I should be too but meh. Philosophical and intellectually engaging conversations are great now and then, don’t get me wrong. But I think I shall follow Obi-Wan’s advice and dwell in the here and now thank you very much. . . Or was it Qui-Gon Jinn? Random fact of the day. When I was a kid and I watched Star Wars: The Phantom Menace, I was like, MAN! I WISH QUI-GON JINN WAS MY DAD OR SOMETHING. HE’S AWESOME. As for the reasons, it was either for his parenting/father figure vibe or just so I could learn how to use a light-saber and kill everybody I didn’t like. Hurr. Yes. Stuff like that goes through my head. I can’t believe I’m nineteen *scratches neck. I’m glad to say nothing has changed. Grin.

Okay. Maybe thinking about stuff like that gives me balance. Then again, maybe I don't really think about it. And it just ... pops into my head. Or something. Meh. Good night people.

#4 Something that is part of your routine that you enjoy

Napping. Like everyday. And then waking up to watch the clouds roll by (when there are clouds). And then lazing on the bed like a cat and soaking up the sunlight. =) I am still begging God to let me grow another inch (however unlikely this may be) so I sleep (also because I am sleepy and enjoy the act of sleeping).

Waking up before everybody else (this is only applicable in Australia, not in Malaysia) since the weather is cool and refreshing and not humid and hot. For some reason I take pride in being up the earliest in the house and walking around and turning off all the lights. Heh. Like HAH. I’m saving electricity. Pfft. On a random note, I completely forgot about Earth hour when it was supposed to happen. I mean. I knew about the time on the day itself. But when the hour came to do it, it somehow slipped my mind. Until the next day. Haha. So bad of me.

THE WEATHER WILL GET CONSIDERABLY COOLER ON THURSDAY. It’ll be 31degrees the day before, and it’ll drop to a 22! With rain to boot! And the minimum will be 8 degrees! AUTUMN IS FINALLY HERE. Thank you God. Because none of us can stand 5 months of summer any longer T_T

Continuing where I left off, post waking up early before everybody else, I enjoy having a cup of coffee early in the morning just enjoying that kind of stillness and get a faraway look on my face.

IF YOU THINK I’M THINKING ABOUT SOMETHING PHILOSOPHICAL AT THIS TIME YOU COULDN’T BE MORE WRONG.

Its just me stoning. And being content. Before attending class T_T and coming home depressed at the workload I have to finish. And all the stoning done after that is due to depression.

My face. When I found out I needed to do a flyer for the church. And that I only had until Friday/Saturday. I got told yesterday evening. While simultaneously working on another flyer. And throw in lots of homework for good measure. T_T Will I go to hell if I skewer everybody on the committee with forks in my mind? I want a holiday. Sigh. I need to learn how to meditate and get counseling for my anger management problems.

Somehow this post feels. . . offensive. I don't think I'm supposed to be complaining about doing work for God. Mmm. =/ No. Actually. I don't mind it. I just wish I wasn't told about it so late. Kayyyy. I'll stop whining and start being productive now. Bye bye Saturday.

Guess who woke up at 5.30 this morning! And I'm more awake right now than I was at 7pm last night. AIN'T THAT AMAZING. Also I'm quite high I guess. I drank coffee last night, took a cold shower and ya. It didn't help. So I guess I just gave up and went to bed. And I woke up =.= and 4.40 without the alarm going off. Then went back to bed until it did.

THE HOUSEMATE MADE TIRAMISU. =) Marscapone cheese is apparently 7 dollars a tub. I can't remember how many grams though. And it was a tad bit on the sweet side. But! On a positive note, we can keep making it until we get the PERFECT RECIPE. Don't know how many we'll have to make for that to happen though =.= And how many wallets we have to burn. The tiramisu looked alot like goop. But its okay! Taste comes first! Aesthetics don't bother me too much =D

For school we have to design a bistro! =D I picked Japanese! So I’m gonna make them wear ninja suits! Then nahhh. I’ll make em dress like thissss. Hurr. Then I thought, make them all wear Noh masks and be incredibly uncomfortable. But they’ll scare the customers away. So I shall make them dress/cross-dress as geishas. Which would be fun. Heh. Maybe.

I HAVE FINISHED ONE ASSIGNMENT! YESSSSSS. ONE DOWN THREE TO GO! WHOOOO. I’m so pleased that this one wasn’t last minute. Its only due next week on Wednesday. That said, I didn’t attend the 3 hour class today. BUT. The teacher gave us permission to skip and work at home. So I did that. =) More productive I think. And I felt more relaxed I guess. I’M GONNA GET BETTER. JUST YOU WAIT. And do totally kick ass illustrations! AND BLOW EVERYBODY’S MINDS TO SMITHEREENS AND SUBMARINES.

That being said, I’m glad its out of the way so I can concentrate on the other projects. I have to do a flyer for church. Fingers crossed. And the deadline is soon too T_T Toes crossed. Heh.

By the end of next week I will have given two presentations, handed in a report and an assignment, be absolutely sleep deprived, looking panda eyed and collapsing into my bed at 7pm with the last coherent thought in my head thanking God that I managed to get through it all. Oh. And finished up a flyer for the church. Let’s not forget that. Over here, I make it a rule not to drink coffee when the weather is 30 degrees or higher. I think I’ll have to make an exception.

SOMEHOW BENEATH THIS HORRENDOUS AMOUNT OF CHILD ABUSE, I KNOW I SHALL SURVIVE. Also my Godma is going for a replacement pacemaker surgery type thing. So please pray. Oh. And thank you for the cookies Ma. They were a nice touch.

On a random note, I have teachers that wear the same thing every time I see them (i.e. once a week). I thought only kids did the this-is-what-you’ll-wear-on-Monday-Tuesday-Wednesday-etc-etc thing-and-absolutely-nothing-else. Apparently adults still do it. I didn’t know whether to be amused or to go, “Please wear something new T_T” Then I realized, my mother must feel the same way when I keep wearing my Giordano linen pants. She got so frustrated. She bought me a new one. (-_-)V CAN’T BEAT THAT EH. She also insisted on buying two Starwars Starbucks t-shirts. I was perfectly happy with getting just one, but she insisted on two. (Knowing what would happen eventually.) Sooo, we are both happeh. Slightly excessive I suppose, but its not like you can get them anywhere else. (They were from Bangkok)

Also. I CAN’T COLOR FOR SHIT ON PHOTOSHOP. WHEN’RE WE GONNA LEARN HOW TO DO THAT?! Kay. I think I’m done ranting and raving for the day =)

Langsam Blut

Hello new favourite song! This was used in the runway scene of Paradise Kiss. The sheer awesomeness of it! Imagine the flashing lights and the glamour, and have this song blaring. And we’re all going like woaaahhhh! *does the wave

This song is going to be looped like 300 times. And I’ll do it with my headphones on. Just so I can blare them into my head in peace. =] I LOVE SONGS LIKE THESE! *shuts the door to air guitar in the room while jumping up and down the bed head-banging like an absolutely spectacular rock star

Haha OMG. I'm rewatching FMA. And oh how I love Roy Mustang. Epic-ness TTM. Oh! I suddenly remember Jaryl telling me on how he was watching FMA one time, having his cousin walk by, and proclaim, "Wow! He's so handsome! (Roy Mustang) Now I wanna watch too!" (something along those lines)

I LAUGHED SO BAD. And then I realized. I'M EXACTLY THE SAME. T_T Pffft.

I remembered just the other day when my bro and I were at Lake Club, some Aunty saw my bro. Then went, “AIYAH! So leng zai! Good thing aunty is already married!” She smiled. Then walked off.

LIKE OMIGAWD ALSDKFJ;LKSJDFLKJSAEOIFJLKASDFKLJLKSAFDJ. I don’t know what is worse. Being good looking and having that sort of thing happen to you. Or having a good looking sibling and WATCHING THE HORROR UNFOLD IN FRONT OF YOUR EYES. Ugghhh. I pity my poor brother. It is at times like these that I am happy I turned out normal looking T_T If my brother broadens out and gets taller, I’ll have to defend him against little girls, girls, preteen girls, teenagers, 20 year olds, 40 year olds, sugar mamas, widowers, paedophiles, grandmas and the whole shebang. Oh. And gay men. GOD WHYYY. *drama queening

It is only 8.30 and I am yawning to high heaven. The hyperness from this morning has officially worn off. Now I’m just sleepy. Apparently the moon tonight is supposed to be the biggest its been in 20 years. I thought I would go moon-gazing, coffee in hand w/ someone spouting heartfelt nonsense. But I realized, I didn't really have anyone to do this with. And I'm not keen on coffee at night when I'm already tired. Then I thought of doing it alone. BUT THAT'S JUST SAD. So no.

Oh! And the beach thing. Apparently they weren’t sand sculptures. But ..just sculptures on the sand. Haha! But in the end it was all pretty good =D Some of them were just awesome looking! Needless to say after all the sculpture viewing, we all jumped into the water to have a swim. It was refreshing!

I am actually slightly behind in schoolwork. But somehow. It doesn’t feel that way. I mean. I can’t get myself to work. Hnn. Maybe I’m too tired right now. =/ I had maggi mee for dinner. I hate maggi mee. And I was too lazy to go out to buy food. Meh.

#3 Something with which you struggle

Later today a whole group of us are gonna go to Cottlesloe beach to see sand sculptures and take pictures! I’m so psyched up for that right now. I’ve been to the beach about a week ago, but I really can’t wait for this one! SAND SCULPTURES! GINORMOUS EPIC HUMONGOUS DINOSAUR-OUS SAND SCULPTURES! I guess I’ll upload pictures or something =D Perth has tons of these kinds of artsy fartsy stuff. I really should be more into it.

Yesterday I ate tons for dinner and lunch. And proceeded to feel slightly guilty. Slighttttlly. But woke up today feeling like a hungry monster. I wonder why that is.

Anyway! Something with which I struggle is . . my mouth =.= I normally shoot off insulting people without thinking. I won’t go as far as to say I regret it. And it usually comes off as being funny. But. Okayyy. I guess I should think before I speak. BUT ON THE BRIGHT SIDE. You can value my honesty. Or bluntness. If I was born a boy, and based on this. I imagine my mother would have named me Frank. Haha! But its okay =D I’m learning to keep my smart ass comments to myself now. So whenever you see me smiling/smirking the way I do, you know why. OMG I JUST REALIZED THAT THIS IS AS BAD AS LAUGHING AT YOUR OWN JOKE. Haha. But whatever =D, I can provide myself my own amusement. . . I forgot what I wanted to say next.

OH! Another thing I struggle w/ is ..overeating T_T Over here, I always cook the portions wrong/bigger. And I end up eating for two cos I’m too lazy to put it into a Tupperware and would rather finish it on the spot. I remembered coming back home, having my dad put rice on my plate and looking at him dumbstruck, said, “SO LITTLE?!” Cough cough. And my mother frequently exclaims that she has to cook x cups of rice more just to accommodate me. Hnn. But I guess I make up for it by swimming lots of laps a few times a week.

OH YEAH! Yesterday I was taking a nap in the afternoon, and then suddenly got jolted awake by my housemates going UWAAAA! just outside my room. Like my eyes suddenly went wide open, and my heart was like ba-doom ba-doom ba-doom! So when I walked out all bleary like, I realized that the commotion was about this girl getting a boyfriend. My precious nap got interrupted for this *facepalm

Yesterday I wrote an email to illustrator Gabriele Brombin. And he's already replied! Okay, so you're thinking, "Big deaaaal." But me, I'm like ,"HE REPLIED HE REPLIED!" (with arms waving in the air) And I'm like jumping up and down in my seat from sheer joy. Sigh. I feel like such a fan right now, you know. Mental image of grabbing the nearest person, shaking them for their lives’ worth and screaming into their face, “OMIGAWD HE TALKED TO ME!” kind of thing and like *fans self with hands.

Clearly I am an easy person to please. My housemate gets tremendous entertainment from me when she watches me play the PS3, absolutely screaming at the screen in exhilaration at winning the stage. And if people compliment me, I smile like a dork for 5 minutes. *stupidest grin on face ever. And everyone will go, "Wth is wrong with you =.=?" Hnn =D

On a random note, yesterday was the first time I had Toblerone! It was naicee.

#2 Something you regret not having done last year

Hrmmm. Right now, the only thing that comes to mind is that “I should have gone to the beach more.” Looking back at last year, I think I had tons more time to kick back and relax. But I’ll probably say the same thing next year. I guess I just need to make the time =D My housemate has an unused, unloved PS3 which collects dust, SERIOUSLY. So I shower it with love and make time for it two or three times a week. =) Heh. And even proceeded to borrow games from her friend =.= Its bad of me. I know. HER FRIEND ALSO HAS AN UNUSED SWIMMING POOL AT HIS HOUSE. OMIGAWDD. *cough

Another thing I regret is not cooking like I said I would when I got back from Perth. I’m just too lazy. And I’m content about it. So yaaa. But when I come back this time I’ll really try to T_T. Hopefully. OH I WANT TO GET AN ICE CREAM MAKER! They’re like 200 bucks from Jusco or something. …But probably after seeing how they’re made and what goes in it, I’ll probably never want to eat ice cream ever again. Its like carrot cake. I know how its made and what goes in. SO I NEVER EAT IT. Its like staring at a heart attack. BUT I do delight in watching everyone else eat it. And then proceed to smile devilishly inside my head. *imagine that (you should be shuddering)

Oh! And I wanted to play the piano more. And actually learn to play the guitar. It is a white elephant in my room. Absolute fail. Oh discipline how I struggle with thee.

On a side note, today I swapped cooking dinner w/ my housemate. I’m supposed to cook on Thursday, but decided to do it today. NOW! There is a perfectly good reason for my …what’s the word…DELIGHTFULLY REMARKABLE PRAISEWORTHY BEHAVIOR. Back to the story. I went grocery shopping w/ a housemate (not the same one) and bought hor fun noodles. So I thought, ”Great! I’ll make my dad’s hor fun and blow their minds off (or some such thing)” While at the shop, I asked the lady for the noodles, after giving me directions, I grabbed em out of the fridge, stared at the expiry date at the back. It said 11^th of March 2011. I went hnn. (CLEARLY somebody here doesn’t realize what date it is) SO after paying for my purchase at the counter, the lady asked me if I could speak Cantonese (in Cantonese) to which I replied, “A little” (in Cantonese, wanting to look good in front of my housemate, even if it was just for a little bit) AND THEN SHE PROCEEDED TO BARRAGE ME IN THE ART OF HOR FUN NOODLE MAKING/INSTRUCTIONS. At which I stared at her point-blank with my ABSOLUTE BEST POKER FACE ON. And pretended to understand every single thing she said. And then coolly and collectedly walked out of the shop. Then I prodded my housemate and went, “What did she say?” with possibly the stupidest look on my face. PLAN FAILLLL. So kids. The lesson is DON’T SHOW OFF (or if you do, at least get it right). So much for dignity.

BUT THE NONSENSE ISN’T OVER JUST YET! There is more to this entertaining tale! I realized, two days later, that the expiry date was 11^th of March. And I bought the noodles on the 12^th. DAMMIT LA. BLURNESS FAIL. I’M GONNA STRIKE THAT OFF THE LIST COS TRYING TO BE UNBLUR - ITS JUST DAMN UNACHEIVABLE.

#1 - Something you're looking forward to this year

This year. . . I'm looking forward to surviving the entire two semesters of second year and getting above 75% T_T and seeing my cousins. Some people have brother/sister complexes. But I have a cousin complex. Nyah.

Uni students slog through the night to get work done. In the past, I always thought it was made up just to scare kids. Apparently. Its not. =.= I mean. Not that I do it. I value my sleep too much for that. But the workload is friggin terrible. T_T HAVE THESE PEOPLE NO LIVES? SO MUCH SO THAT THEY DERIVE THEIR ENTERTAINMENT FROM OUR SUFFERING?! BOMBARDING US WITH POINTLESS EXERCISES e.g. Trace this sentence in serif and sans-serif in 72pt "Jelly-like above the high wire, 6 quaking Pachyderms kept the climax of the extravaganza in a dazzling state of flux."

We have to do that. OVER AND OVER. IT TAKES ONE HOUR JUST TO DO IT ONCE. (You know its bad when you've got the sentence already memorized) So ya. Sob sob. Dear God T_T just let the world end now.

Also. I am looking forward to winter. It may be technically autumn, but it is still 35 degrees. WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU PERTH. EVERYWHERE ELSE IS COOLER. *rant rant rant.

On a random note, my lecturers/people from the art department wear pink sunglasses, have bleached hair, and sport a fuchschia? (meh, don't know how to spell it) jacket which reminds me of Elton John. They also almost always wear black, have mohawks, sport tattoos, and are chain smokers. They also burn incense in the offices to cover up their smelly farts. (Just joking)...(about the fart bit)..(maybe. You never know underneath all that smell)

Fat/fattening folios/process folders make me happy. =)

Because it means I'm actually getting work done T_T

On a side note, I have finished reading all 530 chapters of Naruto. Omigawd. In a pretty short span of time. I read 60 chapters in one day a couple of times. So ya. Now I'm . . PATIENTLY (not quite) waiting for the next installment. I generally dislike starting on series that are still on-going. But well. I guess this was an exception. . . Maybe I should start on Bleach or One-piece. Mmmphf. WORK WORK WORK @_@

Just yesterday, I was helping my deco leader carry her stuff from the lecture theater to her car. I got distracted while I was walking, and turned my head to look at the drama team (they were practicing at the side). And then. I walked into one of those pole things. Like BOOF!

THESE THINGS KEEP HAPPENING TO ME. Luckily. Nobody saw. If they did, they certainly didn't say anything about it.

Today! The girl I sat next to at church introduced herself to me. 10 seconds later, after learning two other people's names (whom I have forgotten), I forgot her name. FAIL. Omigawd. Now I know why I can't make friends. T_T Seriously. Its so bad. I forget their faces. And if I remember their faces, I forget their names. Bah. I need to chant their names like a mantra inside my head and stare at them INTENTLY and commit their faces to my memory (or lack thereof).

Just now, my mom told me that she couldn't sign into msn to talk with me. Her reason being that she had to upgrade for it to work. My dad then proceeded to tell her, that ours is pirated and that we would get tracked. I then said not to bother, and to ask my brother to do it for her instead, since my dad doesn't know what he's doing.

AND APPARENTLY I WAS ON LOUDSPEAKER. And my dad heard everything. AHAHAHA. I love my life. =D

School is starting tomorrow. Oh the horror/anxiety/excitement/HORROR of it all. T_T I still find it scary, making new friends. And I think I will continue to find it scary for the rest of my life. I never know what to say. But its probably one of those things. Mmmph. I should probably improve my personality. . . or something. But I'm rather content the way I am =.= Baah.

Anyway! For this semester (saying 'year' would be a bit too far into the future for my liking, so I'll stick with semester)

1. I will do my best T_T (even though I'm an intelligent but lazy as hell person who somehow managed to get through the first year with decent marks) =D

2. Eat less at the school cafeteria (their ham and cheese croissants are wonderful, but when calculating the cost I spent there every week. It. Was horrifying. And therefore. I should reduce/stop altogether)

3. Do devotion and at least remember to pray before I sleep/get up. (The only thing I tell God before I sleep is usually wishing him good night. So that must change. *cough)

4. Be less blur. Although I'm not sure how to improve on this point really. Just now I had a convo with my bro. It went like this.

"So how was school?"

"=.= Its Sunday."

See what I mean. FAIL TTM. After that he proceeded to tell me that the heat has fried my brain.

5. Try not to doze off in church services. TODAY I MANAGED NOT TO AT ALL. I'm incredibly proud of myself. When I was back home, my mom made us wake up at 6 and go to church with her. Somehow I couldn't get any sleep the night before. Suffice to say that immediately after the worship service. I sat down. And after five minutes. I knocked out for the entire duration of the sermon. NO JOKE. It was a very good idea that we sat right at the back in the balcony.

6. Try to learn more recipes. I suppose my housemates have now become the guinea pigs. It would be insanely awesome if they ate my cooking and suddenly transformed into animals/pink unicorns/green dinosaurs/rainbow whales. Or something. Hnn.

7. Try to be less sarcastic/condescending. Sigh. Although we know this won't really change. So I guess we can strike this off the list. Haha. But honestly. I'm content. =.= So it probably won't change. Sorry Karl. Gotta love the evil charm.

8. Read more books I guess. It seems like I didn't do that at all during the past semester. But I got some reading done during the holidays. So that was pretty good. =)

9. Procrastinate less. =) T_T I will work out a study time table or something so I don't freak out nearing assignment deadlines. Second year is allegedly the beginning of hell.

10. Learn a new language ( or something). Hopefully by the time I come back I will be able to hide the fact that I'm a banana more convincingly. FAKE IT TO MAKE IT. (But clearly this probably doesn't work in real life) So meh.

I can't think of any more right now. But I guess those are the main things. =) I need somebody to hold me accountable for these things. Or I will never go through with them.

Hnn. I haven't blogged in forever. I only got one hour of sleep on the flight. And the rest of the time spent, was time spent trying to fall asleep. But all unpleasantness aside, the one thing I like about flights is that sort of exclusive view you get of the skyline/the fluffy ice cream shaped clouds/ the night sky with stars sans-light-pollution/the amazing Aussie sunrise, etc etc.

ITS A ' I'M UP HERE, YOU'RE DOWN THERE NYAHAHAHA' feeling!

Okay not really. More like a calm solitude or something philosophical bla bla bla. =)

And then you land and GET HIT BY THE BLARDY HEATWAVE. And proceed to find out that its going to be this way for another month, although the technical term for it is supposedly 'autumn', when it feels like the summer is gonna continue forever and ever and ever. If that made any sense. Rant rant rant. =)

I MISS THE BEACH. But its too much of an effort to go there. So I'm going to stay home in my swimsuit, and pour cold water on myself whenever I get too hot and wait for myself to dry off. AND REPEAT THE PROCESS EVERYDAY UNTIL THE WEATHER GETS COOLER.

. . . I probably shouldn't do that. Since Australia is already short on water as it is. Sigh.